Dealing with self

As I pen this down, I feel totally bad, cause I know what it means to live with something that you shouldn't do, but you still do it. I am equally guilty of resorting to a self blemishing exercise each time i feel pressured, rejected, anxious, out of sorts and sad.

Do you know what sexual sins do to a person? They erode a bit of self, it is endulgence that can leave you empty, feel guilty, and each time you want to stop, you find yourself back at it again. And so much for trying to live a Godly life.

I wondered, why it gets to be so difficult to drop a bad habit picked up a long time ago, when no one knows about it, and when you just do it in protected privacy. Like you lock the door, so you don't get an unexpected visitor in the midst of your experience, like you wait up until everyone has gone to bed, or when you just feel lonely like I sometimes do, then you get back into that habit of your own, when no one else, but one watches.

God is watching us, nomatter how often we may try to run. God is watching.

It takes acknowledging that you have a problem, sharing it with someone you trust and working on stopping that seemingly litle yet significant habit.

Some preacher the other day spoke on the ten elements of integrity. What struck me was one of these elements, and i found myself asking God, why then do we find ourselves involved in sins of sexual nature??

Pornography, masterbation, prostitution, fornication, adultery,and many others that I may not know of are some of the sexual sins we commit and put our integrity on the line. We need to stop, we need to change, we need to be sexually pure in order to live a life of integrity.

How then are we able to defeat the devil when we deny our sins before God? Let us go before God in our weakness, and beg him to forgive us and purify us. It is in our vulnerability, sincerity and willingness to beg, that we find forgiveness, restoration and renewal in Christ.

You have to deal with those personal aspects of you that exposes you to the devil's whims. I am overly confident that God is unlike man that he should lie. He says in his word come to me for his yoke is lighter. Let us go before the almighty and beg for forgiveness, and beg for purity, and seek for a fresh start. God will always provide for that because he loves us, so much.

Dear Lord, we come to you in our weaknesses seeking purity from all sexual sins. We seek that the desire and quench be destroyed from my body for it is your temple Lord. We seek that your spirit overwhelms us in all dimensions to create a pure being who walks in integrity. Thank you for the love that you have shown by giving your only son to die for my sins. heal me, and purify me Lord that I may be a worthy and blemish - free sacrifice on the altar of grace, in Jesus name, Amen.

Thank you so much for admitting your wrongs.

God bless you and may he cleanse you, Amen.